Time Capsule
I have had “create a website” on my to-do list for way too many years! But something lit a fire under me this year. Maybe because it’s the year of the Double Fire Horse, or maybe it was just time. Nonetheless, I have been on the lookout for someone to guide me in this process because I knew I would never do it alone. I’m way to computer illiterate and not willing to take it on because I would so rather be doing just about anything else. Well, the perfect person to help me had been under my nose for about 2 years and all it took was a Christmas Card for me to figure it out. But that’s another story…
The story for today is about my 23 year old self. But first, let’s start on the day that we started to build this site. I was gathering my notes and journals filled with ideas for the website and was guided to open a very old journal that was in my pile of writings. I opened the journal and a page literally feel into my lap. It was something I wrote when I was 23 and when I read it, it felt like a quantum jump. It brought me to tears and a realization that our dharma, our purpose in life, has always been with us. Boy, did it feel like a full circle moment. This is what is said:
6/8/1993
It has been said that inspiration hits you out of nowhere. I have been in search for two years now for the exasperation, I felt in late 1990 to the fall of 1991, the fulfillment, the pieces of my happiness that I so desperately want to give as gifts to everyone. The way has finally arrived. In late 1990 and early 1991 I did a lot of fast exhilarated learning I sucked up all that I could at a rate extremely fast. I kept all the knowledge inside me turning and shifting and trying to find a way out. I am going to make my word true. For two years it has been seeping out slowly and that is not enough. I need more, to give more. I do not picture myself as blind trying to hand out pieces of air as the picture would look but as a studied extremely knowledgeable woman giving to everyone the gift of life and health, and a feeling of complete synchronicity to all that they are. A feeling so indescribable that until one becomes part of it and believes, then will they understand. To put a name on it just yet, is not fair - more there is always more. There may not even be a name but an explanation there will be.
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